Day 12

Pre-workout fuel at 5:30 am 1/2 banana with two teaspoons peanut butter and 1/2 cup orange juice Breakfast at Starbucks at 8:30 am toasted multigrain bagel with reduced-fat cream cheese and a tall iced coffee with skim milk and raw sugar Lunch at 12:00 pm 1/2 sandwich (whole wheat bread, sliced grilled chicken, lettuce, tomato, half slice colby jack cheese, mustard) and a peach Snack at 3:30 pm one cup grapes, a slice of cheese, and four Triscuits Dinner at 6:00 pm homemade pizza with Canadian bacon (4 slices--oops), salad (green leaf lettuce, tomatoes, zucchini, red pepper, balsamic vinaigrette), and some pineapple chuncks Snack at 10:00 pm Brian sabotages me! No, it's my fault. I should just go to bed. We had some chex mix and M&Ms.

Day 11--Back at Mindfully Eating

Slowly but surely, I'm clawing my way back to the good stuff! Breakfast at 7:15 am oatmeal (with almond butter and mashed banana)and 1/2 cup orange juice Snack at 9:45 am cup of grapes and handful of raw almonds Lunch at 1:30 pm at a friend's house while swimming ham sandwich with mustard on whole wheat bread, veggies and dip, fruit, salsa and chips, iced tea Snack at 4:30 pm handful of raw almonds Dinner at 6:00 pm grilled chicken salad (green leaf lettuce, carrots, zucchini, tomatoes, red pepper, and grilled seasoned chicken) garlic toast (whole wheat hamburger bun topped with Smart Start spread and garlic powder) Dessert at 8:00 pm graham cracker square topped with low-fat vanilla yogurt and berries I had made the kids parfaits for their dessert so while the stuff was out I couldn't pass it up.

Snack at 10:00 pm some salted/roasted almonds Almonds have the good fat, right? I hope I'm not eating too many of them.

Day 10--Turning the Bend

Although today wasn't perfect, the oatmeal raisin cookies are gone so I there is hope for me to get back on track. I'm optimistic! Breakfast at 7:15 am oatmeal with half banana and almond butter Snack at 10:00 am reduced-fat cheese stick and a cup of grapes Lunch at 12:00 pm Our Girl Scout troop had an end of the year pool party. Pizza was on the menu so I brought my own turkey/spinach/tomato/cheese sandwich on whole wheat. I ate my sandwich but we stayed longer than I anticipated and there was pizza left over and you already know it's my vice so I had a slice. And then another a little later. My friend said she'd bring watermelon but forgot it at her house. The only thing sweet was reduced-fat Chips Ahoy cookies. Eeewww. But I ate two anyway. Snack at 4:30 pm some raw almonds Dinner at 6:00 pm Cheeseburger (whole wheat bun with lettuce, tomato, ketchup and mustard), salad (green leaf lettuce, tomatoes, carrots, zucchini, red pepper, balsamic vinaigrette), the baked version of french fries, two oatmeal raisin cookies. They're gone!!!! 9:30 pm Brian and I indulged in some chips and salsa. Not a lot.

Day 9

It's like a walk of shame. In my defense, I was anxious about something all day. Luckily, there was nothing to be anxious about but still...I'm learning I'm an emotional eater. It's like a vicious cycle. I feel bad/anxious/stressed and I make a bad food choice. I feel bad/anxious/stressed about that choice so I eat something else I shouldn't eat. Then the day is "ruined" so I might as well go all out and start over tomorrow. Ack. Breakfast at 7:15 am raisin bran with skim milk Snack at 9:15 am three stupid, fresh, and delicious oatmeal raisin cookies Lunch at 11:00 am turkey salsa wrap with spinach and cheese, cottage cheese, and two slices of watermelon 1:00 pm two slices of watermelon for the sweet craving 1:30 pm Still have the craving so I eat FOUR oatmeal raisin cookies Snack at 3:00 pm almonds and an apple Dinner at 4:00 pm Cooking Light enchilada casserole and salad (green leaf lettuce, tomatoes, balsamic vinaigrette) three oatmeal raisin cookies (I KNOW!) After swim treat with a friend at 8:30 pm orange cream paleta 10:00 pm a couple pretzels

Day 8--What is Happening?!

I need to get a grip. One cheat day can lead me to a downward spiral very quickly. It's not even "my time" so I need to find some strength to fight off the baked goods cravings. Breakfast at 8:15 am oatmeal with almond butter, maple syrup, and 1/2 cup orange juice Snack at 10:45 Matthew and I were doing a lot of running from store to store and he was taking it like a champ so I got him a popcorn at Target. I ate some, too. How could I not?! Lunch at 12:30 pm turkey/Gruyere/spinach/apple sandwich Something sweet at 1:30 pm two Harry & David dark chocolate covered toffee almonds Snack at 3:15 pm more Target popcorn (darn that huge bag!), almonds, and raisins Binge fest at 4:30 pm I made oatmeal raisin cookies as an end of the year gift for the school office staff. The cookies were fresh--warm and chewy--so I ate three of them. Dumb.

Dinner at 5:30 pm Cooking Light Enchilada Casserole with green salad (green leaf lettuce, tomatoes, avocado, balsamic viniagrette) Skateland Birthday party at 7:00 pm The kids ate pizza for dinner at the party, but I ate in advance so I wouldn't eat pizza and cake there. Well, they didn't finish their pieces and it looked good and a former Miss Arizona was a party guest and she ate the pizza so my rationale was that if Miss Arizona ate the pizza, I could eat the pizza. Geez oh man. So when it was cake time, what the hell? I ate the cake, too. I think it's bad luck for the birthday girl if everyone doesn't eat her cake, right? After that, I was done for the night! So in summary I have not only fallen off the wagon, but it is running me over and over and over again. But tomorrow is fresh with no mistakes. "Turn the clock to zero, Honey...we're starting up a brand new day." Thanks, Sting.

Day 7--A Cheat Day

Well, it was a holiday, after all. Breakfast at 6:45 am oatmeal with raisins and brown sugar, one scrambled egg, and half cup orange juice Snack at 10:00 am apple Lunch at 11:15 am chicken salsa wrap, 8 Triscuits, some low-fat cottage cheese, and some bites of a brownie as I was cutting the pan Dinner at around 3:30 pm at friends' house chicken and steak tacos, fruit, and chips and guacamole, two glasses of wine and a beer "Dinner" again at 7:45 pm bowl of raisin bran with skim milk Dessert at 9:00 pm Cooking Light classic walnut brownie (I had some left over because the middle didn't seem all the way done. Tasted great anyway though!)

Day 6

Breakfast at 7:30 am oatmeal with half mashed banana, raisins, sprinkle of brown sugar, splash of milk, and one grapefruit Snack at 10 am banana with peanut butter and a cup of iced coffee with a tablespoon of Natural Bliss creamer Lunch at 12:45 pm chicken salsa wrap (whole wheat wrap, sliced chicken breast, 1/4 sliced avocado, a tablespoon of chedder jack cheese, and lots of baby spinach) and 8 cherries Snack at 3:15 pm homemade Lara bar Dinner at 5:15 pm at Grandma's meatball sub (5 frozen meatballs with marinara and a tablespoon mozarella cheese on a whole wheat roll), green salad (green leaf lettuce, baby spinach, tomatoes, carrots, and ranch dressing), fruit salad (watermelon cubes, cherry halves, grapes), and three bean salad Dessert at 7 pm cup of coffee with milk and sugar Snack at 8:45 pm salted roasted almonds and raisins Obviously, late evening is my time for cravings. At 9:30 pm I had a square of Lindt Excellence dark chocolate with chili.